Lola’s Cupcakes – raspberry and lemon (and heaven)

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I don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day but I so happened to buy these vegan lemon and raspberry cupcakes yesterday and it looked so fitting to the holiday.

Actually, I didn’t eat them all and looking at the photos is making me crave one. Let me go get a coffee and cupcake, then I’ll come back..

I’m settling down with eating vegan. I’ve decided what my diet for the future will be, but I won’t share it because it’s adapted to me and therefore not many others would understand it, naturally.

Obviously I’ll continue to post on my experiments with veganism though, it’s just food at the end of the day.

I’m a moral driven person, I have principles and yet I let them slacken. I allow them to when they don’t fit with everyone else. That’s when I have conflict in myself. (Along with other conflicts of course. We all have storms within us.)

I need to be stronger in that sense.

Also stronger on the sweet things front at the moment.

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I am getting better each day at sticking to my guns. At least I have guns, I have to give myself that. (Not literal guns, just encase you really thought my cupboard under the stairs is filled with all sorts of ammunition.)

I also don’t fire my metamorphic guns, that’s part of my principles. They’re mine to live by, others don’t need to know nor do I expect anyone to agree with me.

Funnily enough I’ve been obsessed with The Good Place on Netflix and this bit on what makes you a good person makes me laugh so much.

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I also want a pet sheep.

These are the thoughts floating in my brain as I watch Luther, drink coffee, eat cake and put up Etsy listings of my moon faces.

AND the suns out today. Yippee.

I don’t really mean that yippee. I apologise.

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Snapshot of my January 2018

Successfully did Veganuary with this guy…

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And ate a lot, a lot of food…

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Finally begun reading again, in hopes for some quiet…

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Scooted…

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And finally, my love for clay deepened…

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Reasoning

I’m going through a phase of needing quiet.

I suppose I need peace. But the next best thing is quiet.

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I struggle with the thought of ‘what’s the point in doing anything?’ Everything is trivial and meaningless really, once we die. I don’t say this to be a downer – though, naturally, it is a downer.

I fight this conflict all the time. It’s why some days I do nothing. Absolutely nothing.

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Today though I needed a walk in my favourite fields, to clear away the fog and cobwebs, and although it was freezing (literally freezing, it’s been snowing this week) it helped me hugely.

Just feeling the sun on my face.. it’s hard to explain. I don’t need to explain anyway.

I realised

there’s no point to anything but you can’t be happy doing nothing.

It’s simple, but as I’ve been realising recently, the best things are.

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I’ve slacked on reading for a while now and to get back into it I started with some Roald Dahl. I then went onto The Secret Garden. The quote ‘where you tend a rose, my lad, a thistle cannot grow’ has stuck with me. So for two packages I’m sending to friends for Valentine’s Day I included a postcard of this quote that I drew, with a note on the back reminding them to keep the magic within them.

A fashion shoot on my scooter

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I’m back on my scooter. I thought it’ll break after the summer but I’m still living my best life.

I’ve never been shy from buying bits and bobs in charity shops, two years ago I bought all Christmas presents from them. For a while I’ve naturally been going into the direction of buying less and making more conscious decisions. I turned veggie 4 years ago, couple years after I went all cruelty free with make up and now I want to stop buying from unethical shops.

This time last year I actually read The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying and went through my entire wardrobe and got rid of anything that didn’t give me ‘joy’. Unfortunately, it turned out, clothes don’t generally bring me joy, so I didn’t have much of anything left.

I got by though, wasn’t naked the entire time. No arrests for public nudity.

 

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This year I’ve made a personal goal to only buy clothes from charity shops or ethical brands. Not to purposely go and buy loads of clothes, but when for when I do (hence why I haven’t mentioned it before now). I have my reasons, but I haven’t worked out these conflicting thoughts in my brain yet. Haven’t worked out the right balance between my own consumption and helping the planet. I’ve just decided to start. I know how distracting buying more and more can be to the important things in life though and I’m sure over time, and with some research, it’ll all become clear.

I also think I function better living more simply and having less options. After being vegan for January I became healthier and enjoyed food more and I honestly believe it’s because I just couldn’t eat the junk – the choice wasn’t there. I put that label ‘vegan’ on my diet and so I couldn’t have the non-vegan foods. Simple.

I don’t want all the glittery and shiny brand new clothes from Topshop or Zara when I just simply can’t have them.

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So after the vegan market in London I convinced James and Roxanne to go charity shop shopping – in the cold, wet and grizzly weather. ‘It’s an adventure’ I say.

I picked up a few bits, including this dress, originally from H&M, and this denim jacket, originally from BSCO Dockhand… after a lot of research I can confidently say I still know nothing about this brand other than it may have existed in the 90s. And that it’s mens.

That’s another pointer to add actually, I generally don’t look at size or gender (other than if it’s too small).

 

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I’ll share more bits when I buy or wear them.

Meanwhile, others are celebrating that we are finally out of January, I am celebrating that I am finally out on my scooter again. It is pure freedom.

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I kinda did it – Veganuary

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I mentioned the trendy vegan bowls recently, and my lack of interest in them. Controversial, considering how pretty they look and how ugly the food I’ve been eating is.

I mean, I assume they’re full of goodness too?

I still vowed to try one.

Try one – that’s pretty vague. There’s so many different ‘bowls’ but the one we all know are the acai bowls. Still yet to give it a go but I will. I will.

Something I had yesterday, which isn’t my style or taste buds really, (but looks prettier than the other dishes I’ve been sharing this month) is this yogurt and fruit bowl. Alpro blueberry yogurt with blueberries and strawberries.

I can say, and by my own surprise, it was delicious. I don’t miss milk products (and I accidentally ate something containing milk yesterday and I had awful belly pains in bed – over sharing??) so looking for a good vegan yogurt wasn’t my top priority.

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Yet here I am, writing a blog post on how much I enjoyed a soya yogurt and fruit bowl. I had a bowl. I had a vegan bowl.

Am I officially a true vegan now?

 

Tesco’s vegan pizza is everything you need in life – Veganuary

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Remember a few days ago I said I was going to try vegan pizza and hummus???

Yeah, well we didn’t have any hummus so we didn’t do that BUT this pizza was AMAZING! No condiments needed at all, don’t you even think about it! Just leave it alone in all it’s glory.

When we bought it from Tesco (their new vegan Wicked Kitchen range) there was only one left – I mentioned James promised to share it with me and thankfully he did. I completely understand why there was only one left. You will not want to share this. Also, it’s not massive.

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Never, in less than a month, have I ever made so many ‘umm’s while eating or my mind been blown so much. That’s saying something. I’m questioning what I’ve been eating most of my life because I’ve definitely made the wrong choices if I have never consistently been wowed like this before.