Snapshot of my November 2017

Spent all month gathering and playing with pine cones and acorn caps…



Like, seriously, constant pine cones and acorn caps…



Then lots of other crafts (that I can’t show) and also finished my Grandparents gifts (huge weight off my shoulders!)…



Got told the exciting new about a new baby in the family…



Fully embraced Christmas already, but that’s no surprise…



The weather is freezing (and actually snowed in Kent!)…



Did I mention there was a lot of pine cone and acorn caps in my November?!?



Where did the time go?! Actual, genuine question there – I’d love to know.



The things you do once a year

There’s a list of festivities that I am well and truly ticking off already.

Some years I don’t get round to doing them all because once December comes along everything is go go go, and among the Christmas parties, visiting family, and getting rat arsed as often as possible (and then the hangover days) – when do you find time to do the things that make you feel really festive?!

These are the things I’ve been up to in November, that somehow are essential to feeling festive that I don’t do any other time of the year.

Ice skating – even better, in an empty ice rink


Drinking warm alcohol with spices in


Stood outside in the cold weather to look at lights


Made Christmas crafts that I actually adore this year


And then there’s the seemingly endless Christmas shopping, silly jumpers (James and I wore them in September) and popping on a Christmas film at any free moment (I’ve watched Love Actually twice and Arthur Christmas four times).

I really like this time of the year, encase you couldn’t tell.

And James’s suggestion for this list? ‘Not arguing.’ 


What have you been up to? Looking after my mental health and cute penguins


This week on whybut has been different. At first it annoyed me, not going to lie, but turns out how I want to be and how I am are two very different things.

I want to be clear headed 24/7 and able to do all the things I want, but I simply can’t.

I get low, then I get extremely happy, and then back down etc etc. And along with the ride I get so frustrated, I hate the numb days, I hate hopelessness, I want to be something else.

*You’re never going to be someone else*


It’s too complex to go into, plus I can’t be asked.

I’m just being my own best friend, that’s all. And I love to comfort her with Sky Arts Landscape Artist of the Year and Jonathon Creek.

I obviously want to continue to fight the depression and anxiety, but I still need to be at peace with it – some days I can climb over it and sometimes I need to stay on the mountain and make it my home. It can’t be a negative anymore because it’s been years and years now and I should just accept it’s part of my path.

I have depression. I HAVE DEPRESSION! That’s fine.

Anyway, less suppression, more acceptance. That’s been my week.


Along with it I’ve realised I can’t write out do to lists for future days, or plan it because when that day comes my mood might not want to do it – and I don’t need guilt on top of other negative feelings.

So this week my book has turned into an essential part of my working, but not with words – more like a pallet or backdrop.


Still successful. I did stuff that was under each category – lifestyle, work and personal.

I made these wonderfully, weird penguin acorn caps, which I will be turning into baubles and will be up on my etsy soon.


I also finished these two photo wall hangings – after the other two selling – and they are up on my etsy shop.

Other than that my bedroom is a shit hole, I’ve forgotten to clean my teeth today and I’m treating myself to a takeaway pizza tonight. Yipeeeee!