What have you been up to? Looking after my mental health and cute penguins

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This week on whybut has been different. At first it annoyed me, not going to lie, but turns out how I want to be and how I am are two very different things.

I want to be clear headed 24/7 and able to do all the things I want, but I simply can’t.

I get low, then I get extremely happy, and then back down etc etc. And along with the ride I get so frustrated, I hate the numb days, I hate hopelessness, I want to be something else.

*You’re never going to be someone else*

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It’s too complex to go into, plus I can’t be asked.

I’m just being my own best friend, that’s all. And I love to comfort her with Sky Arts Landscape Artist of the Year and Jonathon Creek.

I obviously want to continue to fight the depression and anxiety, but I still need to be at peace with it – some days I can climb over it and sometimes I need to stay on the mountain and make it my home. It can’t be a negative anymore because it’s been years and years now and I should just accept it’s part of my path.

I have depression. I HAVE DEPRESSION! That’s fine.

Anyway, less suppression, more acceptance. That’s been my week.

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Along with it I’ve realised I can’t write out do to lists for future days, or plan it because when that day comes my mood might not want to do it – and I don’t need guilt on top of other negative feelings.

So this week my book has turned into an essential part of my working, but not with words – more like a pallet or backdrop.

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Still successful. I did stuff that was under each category – lifestyle, work and personal.

I made these wonderfully, weird penguin acorn caps, which I will be turning into baubles and will be up on my etsy soon.

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I also finished these two photo wall hangings – after the other two selling – and they are up on my etsy shop.

Other than that my bedroom is a shit hole, I’ve forgotten to clean my teeth today and I’m treating myself to a takeaway pizza tonight. Yipeeeee!

 

 

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Personalised Christmas Bauble Card

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My Christmas cards this year are available to buy on etsy!

Whoop-de-do.

I’ve made my own cards every year for as long as I can remember. The brief history is that I used to make individual ones with my Nan, and unfortunately when I became an adult I became lazy and instead would do a photo card of myself. This time round I decided to make baubles for my family to put on the tree – of themselves, not me. It seems bizarre to give people a funny/quirky picture of me, I know that’s a Christmas thing though and I’ll probably do that again next year.

I fancied doing something different for a card this year. I suppose it’s a pre-Christmas day present for them to hang up.

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Have a look at my shop FromMiles if you’re interested. They’re only £4. I haven’t really done this before so it’s all new and exciting and I LOVE CHRISTMAS and wonderful. It is completely made and designed by me.

Thank you for having a look regardless, you’re a top notch human.

Top notch is a great saying.

See ya!