I travel, I plant, I paint (mainly walls), I scoot, I tie dye, I write

I’ve been quite open and honest with my mental health on here in the past, and with everything else in my life, I just go through phases of how much I tell people. At the moment I’m pretty quiet, which I’m not sure is better because do people assume I’m ‘cured’ because I’m not showing …

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Every bout of depression surprises me like I’m 14 and it’s my first period all over again. Yes, I was a late bloomer and I wish I could feel the jealously of millions of women around the world, if only this thick layer of depression didn’t do exactly as the word says it does. Surely …

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I seem to have gotten into a routine of bed hopping. Now hold on one second, that is not anything sexual before you think it! But quite frankly I’m charmed that you would think that I could pull that many guys to bed hop like that. Thank you. Sadly, I mean because of my work …

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‘It was actually 11 years,’ I didn’t want to give up that dream, but wise words from my boyfriend, James, there. I’ve had the unpleasant experience recently of being graced with someones presence that loves to shit on other people. Not literally, that I know of, other wise this whole blog post would be about …

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Written after my CBT therapy. Thoughts 20/1/17 It’s always a much needed boost going to therapy. It’s like a routine of spiralling and thinking I’m going insane all week, then having a 50 minute therapy which explains what my brain is doing and putting some reason to it. Like the panic diary, it’s giving me …

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Written after my CBT therapy. As English lives are blanketed by snow at the moment it had to be over the phone rather than in person.  Thoughts 13/1/17 I’m not feeling much. This week has been a shit storm, which had come after a 4 month shit tornado. Needless to say my brain was a …

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Although I have the new year spirit animal bounding inside, a new chapter (and all that), it is only a coincidence that this is when my therapy has come up. I was put on the waiting list at the end of November but it coming up now was perfect timing really, it’s like the therapy Gods …

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